I was listening to a song on the radio a few days ago and the words in the chorus really got me thinking. Its a popular song on my Christian station and I don't think I really ever was so struck by the words before and I wondered mmmmmmmmmm God? are you really ALL that I want? I can say that so easily when I'm in worship mode but is that true of me. It should be, but is it? It just seems my sinful nature always wants more, better, faster and I grumble, covet, and despair when I don't get Jesus AND. I have Jesus do I need the AND?
I was really convicted and torn over this discovery! I mean I've always known to a certain degree my idolatry but God showed me some more degrees of it I guess. I'm convinced that I really need to learn in my heart and apply all that I have in Christ's gospel to over come this and be content and joyful. I have been saved from eternal hell all my sins have been forgiven because Jesus died for me............while I was still an enemy of God. I get to have a relationship with God Almighty isn't this MORE than enough. It's certainly infinitely more that I ever deserve! Honestly I should be glowing because I have been graced by God!
I'm convinced that through going to God's word and learning more about the gospel of God that I will grow more and more in love with the Lord. And from this His grace will abound and will be flowing through all my trials and my heart purging me of sin drawing me closer it Him and His people.
Any way it's been a tough week to be an infertile gal and I've grumbled and despaired way too often, I just need a fresh infusion of the grace of the Gospel. The gospel is every thing and I hope I remember this. It's the only way to live a fulfilled life whether I have the blessing of children or not.
Father God please give grace for every trial and draw us all closer to you.
Very often closeness to God is the grace of the trial and I'm thankful for that :)
Six Plus Two
10 years ago
