Congratulations Tiffany and Peter!!!!

It's a new baby girl for my dear friend Tiffany and Peter and a new baby sister for their 4 yr old twin boys!

Her name is Selah Grace she came in at a healthy 8 lbs 10 oz 21'' Mom and baby are doing well. Praise the Lord.

This little girl will be so loved and adored by many. Happy birthday Selah!

I can't wait until I meet her..........maybe tomorrow :)

From a Life Key Email from a Pastor Colin Smith Sermon

Dead Things Don’t Grow
If you want growth, you have to start with life. Dead things don’t grow. Where does the Christian life come from? And why do I sometimes feel more dead than alive?

Regeneration is the root from which your Christian life grows. Regeneration is the life that flourishes in sanctification. It is the engine that drives your progress in holiness.

Regeneration is what makes you want to be more holy than you are. It is the root and beginning of all progress in the Christian life. All progress in the Christian life begins with knowing who you are in Christ. Regeneration tells you who you are.

Do you know who you are?

Have you ever come to a place where you said to yourself “I am such a miserable, pathetic, powerless, no good excuse for a Christian?” Maybe you fell into some sin. Maybe the progress of other Christians made you feel small. Maybe you were ashamed of your thoughts and wondered if you were really a Christian at all. Let God tell you who you are:

In Christ, You are a new creation. (2 Corinthians 5:17)

You have been crucified with Christ. (so don’t crucify yourself again) (Galatians 2:20)

You have been raised to new life in Christ. (Colossians 3:1)

You are a temple of the Holy Spirit. (1 Corinthians 6:19)

You have been set free from sin. (Romans 6:22)

You are a light in this dark world. (Ephesians 5:8)

You have been born again, a dearly loved child of God. (1 Peter 1:23)

Progress begins with knowing who you are

Sanctification is about being who you are in Christ. You can’t be someone you’re not. Be who you are in Christ:

You are light, so live as light.

You’re free from sin, so don’t let sin be your master.

Christ lives in you, so live by faith in Him.

Your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, so flee from sexual immorality.

You’ve been raised with Christ, so set your mind on things above.

You’re a new creation, so live for Christ and not for yourself.

You’ve been born again, so love one another deeply.

Someone said to me recently “It has really helped me to know that the flesh is not who I am. It is what I am fighting against.” She had discovered the truth of regeneration: I am a new creation in Christ and I am going to spend the rest of my life living that out—to His praise and glory. That’s the joy and the freedom of the Christian life. It’s not about pretending to be something that you’re not. It’s learning to be who you are in Chrit

This week’s scripture: “Since, then you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above…” Colossians 3:1 (NIV)

This LifeKey is based on the message “Knowing Who You Are,” by Pastor Colin S. Smith on May 3, 2009, from the series “Regeneration: How Christ Changes Your Soul.”

It's a battle

Life's circumstances can change so quickly for us. We sort of live our lives thinking things will always be the way they are "now." Then bam something comes are way so unexpectedly. Some times it's good, some times it's devastating.

My husband and I have just discovered that a dear friend and brother in the Lord has kidney cancer. He also has two tumors on his spine one of which ate through 30-40% of a vertebrae. He is in pain. We love him and firmly believe in the power of prayer to our great and awesome God. So if you have a moment today please pray for him, his wife, and their 4yr old daughter (who is super cute! and tons of fun!). We are hopeful.

I'm sorry if my blog seems a little depressing lately. The Spirit of God is working in my heart. He's encouraging me and blessing me to consider it all joy! But infertility is very hard, brutal actually! Most of you know this full well even if you have achieved sweet success. The lessons learned and memories never leave you I can imagine.

I've been having a very difficult time lately. It's been a battle not to sink into despair........OK an all out war! I've been training my self to meditate on God's wisdom, His love and promises, His word. Not to give my self this superficial warm fuzzy feeling but to build up and encourage my soul.

Also I know that Jesus has been tempted as I have been but He is with out sin. I know that when I get that horrible cold achy sadness in my heart Jesus has been there. He can relate to me. He was a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief......He suffered more than any one. I can go to Him, I need Him. He listens when no one else cares or understands.

After our Dear Lord went through His sufferings the bible says that He has been anointed with Joy above all of His brothers. Infertility is part of my suffering. Suffering is always worth it, God makes it worth it. That's why the bible says to consider it all joy.

God is so good!

Feelings; Nothing More Than Feelings

I have so so much to be thankful for and to glory in! Jesus has saved me by His sacrifice and that's amazing!!! He is mine forever! My brain can't fully comprehend the glory of the gospel. His precious Spirit indwells me His word sustains me. I have a Husband who adores me so much that he takes the time to write me love poems. I have a great church with lovely people and a pastor that preaches the word. My husband and I both have jobs, cars, a roof over our heads, clean water to drink and hot water to bathe in. I could go on and on for a while. I should be happy, right? I mean I am richer than about 3/4 of the people on the planet!

Well I am happy but I'm not........get it? I have great joy but I have great sorrow. I know what my future holds but yet I don't. Oh how I struggle to be content but why?????? I'm sure if I had my perfect family in a perfect world in a perfect house with out any struggles I would still struggle with being content............I sound a lot like my great,great, great, etc grandmother Eve don't I. Lord help me!

So here I am feeling , feeling like its very cold out side and barren looking and that's kinda how I feel right now. I want some hot cocoa maybe it would make me feel better.

How it went

OK first of all we (Husband and I) arrived early to our appointment through snow storm and all. But silly me never bothered to fill out the tons of paper work that they so graciously sent me weeks earlier.......some how with all the business this time of year and work I just forgot........duh!!!! They were a little annoyed and I felt like a total loser! So things didn't get off to a good start.

The doctor was great so nice and very skilled in this area. She had called my last doctor a glorified gynecologist and she would be right this new doctor has the skills. However she was a bit pushy with the IVF, and I understand why. From her perspective it offers us the best opportunity for a successful pregnancy. However for ethical reasons we are not comfortable with that option. She asked what exactly were our concerns about it and we told her and she tried to address our concerns. Honestly the only thing I don't like about IVF is the embryo selection part. The doctor "decides" what's a good embryo and what's not and I personally don't like that, I'm not comfortable with it at all. SO I digress.

She said that our best chances were with the injectables and we went through what all of that entails. She did the oh so fun ultrasound on me to check out my ovaries and uterus. She said that I have a big follicle now that looks like its ready to go.........fingers crossed on that!

But all of this to say I'm not sure that we are even going to do any of this. I was so excited and ready to go but my other half who is my better half has said that he doesn't want to do any treatments at all, period, end of story, NO.

Oh dear I hope that he changes his mind about this. He is my husband and whatever he decides I will see as my will in Christ Jesus. But I have to tell you that I was not happy and that's putting it mildly. I love him we need to pray about this lots and be honest and open with each other about the reality of what both options mean. I'm confused, hurt, sad, angry, sinful, lots to work through and hallelujah God is good and He will be our help and our guide through this difficult time.

People often say as scripture says that God is not a God of confusion. Implying that a person should always know what road to take. And that's very true when it pertains to who He is and what God commands and the way to salvation. However some times life is dark, deep, and mysterious and it's during those times that His sheep really stay close to their Shepherd's knee.

Thank you all so much for your love and prayers!!!

Infertility Appointment

This Wednesday My husband and I will be going to an infertility clinic to try and get a fresh perspective on recent events. I found this doctor through a friend at work surprisingly! As you all know people have a lot of well meaning advice and can usually name a few doctors to send you too most that stuff gets chucked in to the recycle bin in my brain. But I checked out this doctor on line and he just seemed like a rocket scientist in the field of infertility and it seemed like maybe he would be able to address more accurately some of my concerns.

So right now I don't have a lot of expectations for this appointment, I'm not even sure if we want to try infertility treatments right now. I just want to see what this doctor has to say and what his suggestions would be. If I happen to get pregnant again I want to have some one I can go to that I trust that won't treat me like just a normal boring OB patient.

Your prayers would be great!

Here it is

I love this poem make sure you listen to it on their web site. I have the link below.

Enjoy!


The Watches of the Night(Kristyn Getty)

I look towards the wintering trees
To hush my fretful soul
As they rise to face the icy sky
And hold fast beneath the snow
Their rings grow wide, their roots go deep
That they might hold their height
And stand like valiant soldiers
Through the watches of the night

No human shoulder ever bears
The weight of all the world
But hearts can sink beneath the ache
Of trouble's sudden surge
Yet far beyond full knowing
There's a strong unsleeping light
That reaches round to hold me
Through the watches of the night

I have cried upon the steps that seem
Too steep for me to climb
And I've prayed against a burden
I did not want to be mine
But here I am and this is where
You're calling me to fight
And You I will remember
Through the watches of the night
You I will remember
Through the watches of the night

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