I was listening to a song on the radio a few days ago and the words in the chorus really got me thinking. Its a popular song on my Christian station and I don't think I really ever was so struck by the words before and I wondered mmmmmmmmmm God? are you really ALL that I want? I can say that so easily when I'm in worship mode but is that true of me. It should be, but is it? It just seems my sinful nature always wants more, better, faster and I grumble, covet, and despair when I don't get Jesus AND. I have Jesus do I need the AND?
I was really convicted and torn over this discovery! I mean I've always known to a certain degree my idolatry but God showed me some more degrees of it I guess. I'm convinced that I really need to learn in my heart and apply all that I have in Christ's gospel to over come this and be content and joyful. I have been saved from eternal hell all my sins have been forgiven because Jesus died for me............while I was still an enemy of God. I get to have a relationship with God Almighty isn't this MORE than enough. It's certainly infinitely more that I ever deserve! Honestly I should be glowing because I have been graced by God!
I'm convinced that through going to God's word and learning more about the gospel of God that I will grow more and more in love with the Lord. And from this His grace will abound and will be flowing through all my trials and my heart purging me of sin drawing me closer it Him and His people.
Any way it's been a tough week to be an infertile gal and I've grumbled and despaired way too often, I just need a fresh infusion of the grace of the Gospel. The gospel is every thing and I hope I remember this. It's the only way to live a fulfilled life whether I have the blessing of children or not.
Father God please give grace for every trial and draw us all closer to you.
Very often closeness to God is the grace of the trial and I'm thankful for that :)
Six Plus Two
10 years ago
Very powerful last sentence. thanks for sharing. Praying for you .
ReplyDeleteVery touching post....very powerful. Thanks!
ReplyDeleteOne day the same question hit my mind, when in worship and feeling that Holy Ghost so strong it is easy to know and to feel that He is all I want. But out in the world when these trials and these troubles come againest us is He really still ALL I want and need? It is good to evaluate ourselves and reakky search our hearts. I have read and read your posts in the past and you always put the Lord first in all that you do, sometimes we are harder on ourselves and judge ourselves to harshly. I think you rely on the Lord will all that you have in you, you are an amazing amazing person, your works for the Lord is shining out to others and the Lords is being glorifies through your posts. Please keep writing these things on here because many lives are touched, I know that mine has been, by your words and your faith in the Lord.
ReplyDeleteLove ya, Alicia. You always keep things in perspective and I truly admire that. Thanks.
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