It's been a while since my last post. I've just been busy with working and whatever! Life has been good. I've been encouraged in some things and discouraged in others, kind of a mixed bag.
First of all do people some times treat you like an idiot when you're an infertile? They do me.
Yes, I do know how to "make" a baby, and no we don't just need a vacation to try unless you would like to pay for it.
Thank you so much for informing me that babies grow in the womb and not the stomach who knew! Gee no I don't want your kids for the week just to see....joker you're so funny!
"Just wait on God's timing, it will happen."
The most difficult thing to deal with has been having to work with two women who are about as far along in their pregnancies as I would have been. They're due in April and I was due in the early part of May around mothers day.....how nice that would've been.
And when I say for the past month all the women at work ever talk about is baby crap I'm not kidding. My labor was this long, my baby weighed this much, it was the best decision I ever made, YADDA YADDA all day long. Oh and then some one always yells out, "It comes in threes watch it girls, he he!"
Also my sister in law is just cruising along with her pregnancy! Very excited about our newest niece or nephew. But of course with her baby's birth around the corner I'm reminded of my failures. Yes In Laws I'm the biggest loser that can't give my husband, your son any children!
Her baby showers are just around the corner and I am unable to make any of them because they are all on Saturday. I can't get a Saturday off from work, ever! Oh, I could call in sick but my sick days are all gone because of my time off from my miscarriage. So I'm sure I look like the biggest jerk even though I can't help it!
OK are you still there sorry about the venting n' stuff.
It's Blue Monday and my friend has just arrived and my hopes of ever having a baby right now are really dashed to pieces.
But who knows I could be pregnant next month...I'm just sick people! Please get my sence of humor here.
Even though I have so much to be thankful for today is just one of those days where I just need a extra hug ladies.
The verse I'm clinging to today is from Psalm 16:11
Thou wilt shew me the Path of life :
in thy presence is fulness
of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.
Six Plus Two
10 years ago
Alicia,
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry if I have ever said anything that made your pain worse. It is NOT my intent and NEVER would be. I am praying for you and sending LOTS AND LOTS of CYBER HUGS to you!
andrea
Andrea thank you and no you never have!!!!! Thank you so much for your cyber hugs!!!!
ReplyDeleteAlicia, I have been facing those same things in my life and sometimes I don't understand why things happen. But know that He is right there with you going through the battle with you. I wish I could take the pain away from you. God Bless you my friend. I am always here for you. Give Him the battle and He'll give to you the victory!
ReplyDeleteOh, sweetie, I've been hit with those comments, too. That and "Oh, you must be having soooo much fun trying!". People don't understand that sex becomes such a "job" after awhile.
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking of you sweetie. (((HUGS)))
People can say such mean things, even if they don't realize it. Everything you are feeling is totally normal and it's going to be hard all the way leading up to the day you were due and beyond. It's an unusual grief that only those that have gone through miscarriage can understand. I still see pictures of my co-workers baby (who was born last march when our first would have been born) and my heart just breaks. Hang in there. Much love.
ReplyDeleteStupid comments like that make this whole thing so much harder!! (((HUGS))) "You will keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you." (Isaiah 26:3)
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