Where to Begin......................

The past couple of weeks have brought, sadness, confusion, and finally joy.

A couple Saturdays ago I called my husband when I was finally on my way home from work, just to let him know I would be home in an hour. He then tells me that his cousin's wife died. I almost drove off the road in shock! She was only 28. I then asked if she had had her baby yet......I thought that she was still pregnant. Well she did have her baby 3 weeks ago. I didn't know cause' no one told me. Mmmmmmmmm.

SO oh my gosh this is awful! This poor baby and what about her husband? I know that he's not capable of taking care of a little one especially now! Thankfully he was on his way to my husbands parents home where the baby would get good care.

Thoughts of adoption were going through my mind at this point. However I thought that it was too early to be talking about adoption. I thought it would be best to give the baby's father a week or two to grieve and then discuss the possibility of us adopting. These were all thoughts in my mind, I didn't tell any one. I just wanted to play it by ear. My husband was going over there that evening to give support to the father along with other family members.

When he came home I was asleep but he woke me up and told me that we might have the possibility to adopt the baby. I was annoyed. "Its too soon for that can't we give the father time to grieve his wife died yesterday!" I thought that he had brought it up but to my surprise some other family members did. They felt the Lord was moving them to adopt the baby.........providing we didn't want the baby.

I'm thinking well of course I want the baby that's not the question. My thoughts are who would provide a better home for the baby.

Let's compare shall we.

They have a Mom who stays home, I would have to work p/t.

He would have brothers and sisters to love on him, we have a dog and a cat.

They are financially stable, we are just getting by on two incomes.

She's an experienced mom, at 31 I would have a lot to learn!

They would provide a beautiful christian home with a lot of love for him.

Our home would need lots of repairs, all though we could stay at my Mom's empty home. Any way.

So to me as much as I'm crushed and hurt its clear where the little guy should go.

I thought that we would be the only ones interested in adopting him, it never crossed my mind that any one else would want him, but God was moving in peoples hearts. So I'm just shocked and definitely going through some sadness. I thought this would be a great opportunity for us that God had orchestrated.

I never thought about any one else. However, God moves in a mysterious way and I trust Him. I'll get to see how He will work out His great and awesome plan with this little baby who I love and what joy He will bring to a family I love.

Through this tragedy I will get to see the hand of the Lord and learn so much about HIM!


Her are a couple stanzas from God Moves in a Mysterious Way.

God moves in a mysterious way
his wonders to perform.
He plants his footsteps in the sea
and rides upon the storm.

His purposes will ripen fast,
unfolding every hour.
The bud may have a bitter taste,
but sweet will be the flower

Praise the Lord!

Through the past few weeks God has shown me clearly that He is in control. He alone has determined the boundaries of peoples dwelling place, that they should seek God. Acts 17:26-27 He gives life and He takes it, some times very suddenly. His hand directs all of our lives, from the smallest baby to the king of a nation. He give me so much joy as I watch His sovereign hand move.