I'm just letting a few prayer requests be made known. I've had some things that God has placed on my heart that need prayer.
1. Should I start seeing a RE again? And if I do how should we proceed with treatment.
2. Should we start looking into adoption and start a home study. Where should we adopt from domestic or international.
3. My struggle with adoption is that it's hard for me to understand, in a way, that this woman wouldn't actually want her child. I have scenarios in my head where I have put my self in the birth moms place. I just wonder if shes being pressured in some way to give up her baby but she really wants him/her. Will she want her baby back years down the road and won't be able to get him/her back, what would that do to her. I just need to know if we adopt that this will be our child and not some other woman's baby. I don't want to steal some ones baby!!! I know I have issues :)
4. Lots of women around me are pregnant. I need the strength from Jesus to joyfully endure and be a blessing to them.
Thank you for your prayers, God bless!
Six Plus Two
10 years ago
oh I love you... these are great prayer requests, they are honest and from deep places in the heart, not easily brought into the light. Praise the Lord for your courage sister!
ReplyDeleteI have been so blessed to know mothers who have adopted stateside as well as internationally... I understand your fears, if that is even a "right" word for your concerns, and think they are more often associated with stateside. I know children now from Liberia, soon I will know 2 from Ethiopia, I know some from Russia, and China :) Praise God :) So much to pray about, not only the big picture of is adoption for us, but what kind of adoption, and if international, what country ... it could be the beginning of a grand adventure... praying for you always
your sister
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I'll be praying for you! Thanks for sharing those requests.
ReplyDelete((((Hugs)))) I pray the Lord direct your steps to fulfill the plan He has for you. He is in control and He knows exactly what is happening. He has a plan.
ReplyDeleteLet me share this with you. It has nothing to do with infertility in the sense of infertility but I believe it's indirectly related.
I have a close friend, she and her husband have three children and are devout Christians. This friend helped to lead me to homeschooling. They struggled to make ends meet like many families with one income do. Things got really bad and she had a choice, her choice was to either go to work so that they could keep their home or continue homeschooling and lose it. At the time I had the hardest time understanding her decision. She chose to continue homeschooling and that they did lose their home.
That was several years ago maybe 4 or 5. She never understood why they had to lose their home, it was such a sacrifice for them. BUT the one thing she knew was that God had called her to homeschool and she could not disobey that call. Last week she called me, she said, "Jen, the Lord finally showed me why we had to lose our home. We found out that another couple bought it and the woman became very sick (just like she and her son had while living there) they discovered that behind the walls of that home, there was thick black mold growing. Had we stayed it might have cost us our lives, and had we discovered it, which I don't think we would have, we wouldn't have had the money to fix it."
I was stunned. Even though it looked so bleak and hopeless to us, and we questioned why God would let them suffer so, I mean they were good Christians and were speaking blessing over themselves. How could this be?
Now we know. He had saved their lives. He required that they suffer a small amount to save them from disaster. He protected them and had their best interest in mind. He knew all along. I wonder how it made God feel to know that we were questioning Him?
What I learned through this was just to trust in His plan no matter what. I'm most convinced that the Lord has a child or children chosen for you, whether they be through your womb or adoption or both. Just seek Him for your direction, and know He is in control. Come what may, He has a purpose, He has a plan.
Much love my friend.