Feelings; Nothing More Than Feelings

I have so so much to be thankful for and to glory in! Jesus has saved me by His sacrifice and that's amazing!!! He is mine forever! My brain can't fully comprehend the glory of the gospel. His precious Spirit indwells me His word sustains me. I have a Husband who adores me so much that he takes the time to write me love poems. I have a great church with lovely people and a pastor that preaches the word. My husband and I both have jobs, cars, a roof over our heads, clean water to drink and hot water to bathe in. I could go on and on for a while. I should be happy, right? I mean I am richer than about 3/4 of the people on the planet!

Well I am happy but I'm not........get it? I have great joy but I have great sorrow. I know what my future holds but yet I don't. Oh how I struggle to be content but why?????? I'm sure if I had my perfect family in a perfect world in a perfect house with out any struggles I would still struggle with being content............I sound a lot like my great,great, great, etc grandmother Eve don't I. Lord help me!

So here I am feeling , feeling like its very cold out side and barren looking and that's kinda how I feel right now. I want some hot cocoa maybe it would make me feel better.