Life's circumstances can change so quickly for us. We sort of live our lives thinking things will always be the way they are "now." Then bam something comes are way so unexpectedly. Some times it's good, some times it's devastating.
My husband and I have just discovered that a dear friend and brother in the Lord has kidney cancer. He also has two tumors on his spine one of which ate through 30-40% of a vertebrae. He is in pain. We love him and firmly believe in the power of prayer to our great and awesome God. So if you have a moment today please pray for him, his wife, and their 4yr old daughter (who is super cute! and tons of fun!). We are hopeful.
I'm sorry if my blog seems a little depressing lately. The Spirit of God is working in my heart. He's encouraging me and blessing me to consider it all joy! But infertility is very hard, brutal actually! Most of you know this full well even if you have achieved sweet success. The lessons learned and memories never leave you I can imagine.
I've been having a very difficult time lately. It's been a battle not to sink into despair........OK an all out war! I've been training my self to meditate on God's wisdom, His love and promises, His word. Not to give my self this superficial warm fuzzy feeling but to build up and encourage my soul.
Also I know that Jesus has been tempted as I have been but He is with out sin. I know that when I get that horrible cold achy sadness in my heart Jesus has been there. He can relate to me. He was a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief......He suffered more than any one. I can go to Him, I need Him. He listens when no one else cares or understands.
After our Dear Lord went through His sufferings the bible says that He has been anointed with Joy above all of His brothers. Infertility is part of my suffering. Suffering is always worth it, God makes it worth it. That's why the bible says to consider it all joy.
God is so good!
Six Plus Two
10 years ago
Alicia,
ReplyDeleteDo not apologize for being honest on your blog. GOD loves you and HE longs to comfort your heart. Climb into HIS arms and rest.
Blessings and prayers, andrea
PS: If you would like a prayer button for your family member with kidney cancer, go to: http://richgifts.blogspot.com Edie is a sweetheart and makes them free for those with urgent requests. It is a ministry for her. Just tell her I sent you.
Thanks Andrea for your kind advice :) I love the idea for the prayer button too.
ReplyDeleteAlicia, I will spend some time tonight praying for your friend. Also, I'm so sorry that you are suffering. You're right - infertility is so hard. I know that God is using you to minister to others through your suffering. Praying for you, too!
ReplyDeleteAlicia, I agree with Andrea, don't apologize for being honest! God created us with feelings, with a heart that breaks under these types of circumstances. He just asks us to hand it all over to him and let Him carry it...it will still hurt but He will help us heal!
ReplyDeleteThe Lord has been bringing you to mind quite a bit recently. I know for me it was many months after the miscarriage where I was so very sad. Just checking in, letting you know I am thinking of you and praying for you. Infertility is so hard; your faith through this battle is inspiring. May God strengthen you and fill you will all joy and peace as you press on to what He has planned for you.
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