Tomorrow I have an appointment with a new doctor to get a second opinion on things and he's also closer to us. I'm not really excited about it, I'm annoyed that I have to keep going to these appointments. They are some what taxing on a women. I do hope that he will figure out something that help me to conceive, it's so confusing though because I know in my heart of hearts that it is God alone who allows conception and not mans scientific techniques and medicine.
I've never been pregnant. Never! Not even close. And at this stage in the game I think all I can hope for is a miracle. So I do ask the Lord to allow me to conceive, I know that He can if that is His will for me. I pray for His guidance and wisdom as I continue to walk through this trial with Him by my side. I don't want to cry at my appointment, my tears come so easily now. I hope that through Jesus that my heart will be where it needs to be to ask lots of questions and I hope that the doctor will be honest and helpful. I hope I will be pregnant soon, "sigh." I found my self day dreaming the other day about what a JOY it would be to bring a new baby home :) But if not, I have JOY,JOY,JOY in Jesus Christ and in His inheritance and promises.
I just found out that an old friend of mine is expecting a baby very soon. And I was so happy for her but then she told me that she had a dream that I was pregnant. For what ever reason that made me so sad, it bothered me. No, I'm not pregnant. I think every one I know has had a dream that I was pregnant, unless God has clearly sent the dream I just wish people would not tell me this. I have had dreams that I know CLEARLY have been sent from God as a comfort to my soul during this time, He is so kind and gracious.
Please if you would remember me in your prayers. We are still looking into adoption right now and doing some "home improvements" (our house needs work) to help with our home study. I'm just hoping that 2009 will be the year that we get to welcome a new baby into our lives.
Six Plus Two
10 years ago
I understand the feeling of dread about more appointments. I am so relieved that for right now we are finished with appointments. And, what is it with people having dreams about pregnancy? People have told me that too and it always brings up so many emotions in me. Unless God himself spoke to you in a burning bush, please don't tell me I am going to get pregnant when I have never had even one positive test. NEVER. It's like it plays with your mind. Sigh. So I am right there with you sister. We are looking into adoption now too. Don't ever stop dreaming...I keep asking God to give me HIS dreams for me and to make them my own. Hope and love to you friend!
ReplyDeleteThank you for your very encouraging comment. I'm LOL about the burning bush! It feels sooo good to laugh right now :)
ReplyDeleteI know that appointments can be scary and aggravating all at the same time. My tears come very easily to. I saw a woman in Walmart the other day who was pregnant and I started crying! Now how crazy is that? But I will continue to pray for you and just keep the Lord on your side and everything will be alright. Love, your sister in Christ., Samantha
ReplyDeleteThank you for the good advice you give me. I loved what you said. I will send you thise CD's out one day this week. One of them is one someone sent me of someone preaching and the message just seemed to speak to me and my situation. I hope they help you as much as they did me. I have all kinds of different kinds of gospel music that I listen to so I made you a few I hope you enjoy them and my prayers are with you. Love, Samantha
ReplyDeleteI know its hard. Your post breaks my heart for you. I know that isn't what you want to hear but it does. I understand the unwanted tears in the doctors offices.
ReplyDeleteI want to thank-you for all of your faithful comments to me on my blogs. The Lord uses you in great ways!
I am praying for you dear friend. BEAR HUGS!
I'm dying here! What'd the doc say?!
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