quick up date

Sorry I haven't been able to post my update I've been a little busy. I saw my new doctor last week and He was a nice man but I could tell that he was in a big hurry because he had a lot of patients to see. He didn't have a whole lot to say except that I was over weight and that maybe loosing a couple pounds would help. Ekkk!!! He said I "wasn't that bad though." I got a laugh out of that!

It tends to annoy me when people suggest that I loose weigh (to get pregnant) because when I first started out trying to get pregnant I was an OK weight. Then after months and months of nothing and quiting my physically intensive job and sitting at home like a Lop and being a bit depressed helped me to gain 65 lbs in about 8mos! So all that to say when I was less chubby I still couldn't conceive. But I digress its still a good idea to drop a few pounds so I will try, and I was told to avoid wheat and common food allergy items.

He also recommended an RE for me to go see after I loose some weight. SO I'm still hoping that this will be the year that God has for us to bring a child into our home! I'm not going to lie I've been struggling with realizing that I'm getting older and that I have NO children yet. It hurts so much some times. Also it's been a real challenge to talk to people. This infertility thing and other trials have really made me shy, because I'm hurting and most people have nice families a big home and a good job etc. and I feel like my life has been completely shaken stirred and turned around and I don't want to bother any one with my issues. I have a couple of good friends that love me and are concerned for me and I for them and of course my husband which is such a blessing. But I don't have a particular group that I belong to and I often feel left out (sounds pathetic I know), I'm like a square peg in a round hole. Most women my age usually have young children and babies and their life is going wonderfully and my life is just different. The good thing about being so out of place is that I'm totally reliant and dependant on Jesus and I lean on Him for every thing.

So my next step in this trial is to try and loose some weight call the RE and keep praying to my Lord for His grace. And "I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus." Phil 3:14

"Be careful for nothing ; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Phil 4:6-7