WESTMINSTER SHORTER CATECHISM (1674)
In reference to the Lord's prayer.
Q. 101. What do we pray for in the first petition?
A. In the first petition, which is, Hallowed be thy name, we pray that God would enable us and others to glorify him in all that whereby he maketh himself known; and that he would dispose all things to his own glory.
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Its good to remember that the purpose for my life, for me being here on this planet in time and space is to glorify God. He gets ALL glory no exceptions. As Christians we pray and believe that the Lord would show Himself strong. We hate seeing Him and His Son regarded as nothing more that a fairytale. God's glory is another facet to this infertility trial that I struggle to understand.
I'm often grieved that many unbelievers, people I know, understand that I'm a believer in Christ. Yet they see that I've not been blessed with children. They also know that having children is an unfulfilled longing in my heart. I'm worried that they will equate this with God's ability's and say in their hearts, "See her God is unable to make her conceive." This is a great concern of mine.........I think it makes God look bad. Now I know that in the end that God will not be mocked by unbelief and He does whatever He wills, but sometimes I can't help but think about this.
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It's been difficult when the multitudes of ladies at work ask, "Any babies yet?" and I have to sheepishly reply, "No, not yet." Then they get a blank stare on their face and tell me that I can have theirs (HAHAHA). I hope and pray that God will show Him self strong for His glory sake. I know it might sound silly but I was thinking. Man wouldn't it be great if everyone knew that, even with fertility treatments I was unable to get pregnant. And then one day bam! I'm expecting :) I just think that that would be an amazing witness to God and His power. But I confess that's just me day dreaming a bit, I pray it happens.
I know that He is ABLE. Even if I never conceive I pray that the Lord will show Him self strong in my life and that MUCH glory will be brought to His name by my humble existence here on earth. I pray that by His grace I will live my life and finish well so that He will in turn get all the glory!
You are right - God IS able. :) It's amazing to look back and see Him working in our lives - and most of the time we didn't realize He was there. He is allowing you to go through this journey for a reason - maybe the outcome will be a baby - maybe not - and that is a HARD realization to come by - I know.
ReplyDeleteGod orchestrated everything for my husband and I - through infertility treatments - we KNEW we were where He wanted us to be. Then, one day, we both felt led to stop all treatments. Why? Why let us go through these 4 years of treatments and provide everything for us with no result? What was the point?
Part of the point was that we would focus even more on Him. Even though allowing us to conceive would have been a HUGE miracle and we would give Him the glory - that wasn't His plan.
We have PEACE - peace I never ever thought I could have now. Letting go of the horrid feeling of not being pregnant was a release - a release that has helped me see past my own life and into the lives of so many children that aren't babies - but need homes, families, a mom, a dad and our God.
Have you ever thought about older child adoption? I'm no expert - but I could answer some basic questions.
You are meant to be a mom - but only God knows the make-up of your family. He has it planned out - just as He has my family planned too. I just wish He'd share a little more information with us - don't you?
Thank you for being so transparent in your blog - I bet more people read it than you know. :)
God Bless!
-Keri
What great reminders, thanks for sharing your heart! I can relate to SO many of your thoughts and feelings!
ReplyDeleteJust wanted to say hello and give you a hug! (((Alicia)))
ReplyDeleteThanks for the HUG :) I needed that today!
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