Hello and Welcome!

First and foremost I have been saved by the blood of Jesus. I've been born again, that is something to rejoice about! Birth is always a miracle and He has breathed life into my soul, thank you Jesus. I am His and He is mine. He is the center piece of my life.

I'm writing this blog to not only express my thoughts. But also to hopefully be an encouragement to other barren women, as others blogs have been a great comfort and encouragement to my soul.

I am praying for you!

I have been married for 5 years, to the love of my life named Rick. My trial of infertility for baby number one has been going on for the last 2.5 years. I am turning 30 in 3 days, Yikes! Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock......that would be my biological clock ticking.

We saw a really good infertility specialist about 6 months ago who ran every test imaginable. The final diagnosis was unexplained infertility, she said I ovulate on my own but not strong enough. So we tried 50 mg clomid with ovidrill and IUI twice........BFN! The next set of infertility tx are too much money for us right now. Like 2,000-5,000 dollars too much. We don't want to do IVF, our doctor strongly recommended it though. I certainly do not condemn any one who is doing or has done IVF.......May you be blessed with children. I am currently seeing a doctor who mentioned it looks like I might have a thyroid issue which could be a hurdle in getting pregnant. More test to check out that option.

So...........we wait. I'm using my time to seek Jesus and learn as much as possible about Him and His ways through His word and prayer. Also trying to lose a bit weight. He is helping preparing my heart and home for the arrival of children. I would love to have a home full of children some day. Thus far God has had different plans for us, so I humbly submit my self to His sovereignty and hope to learn as much as possible from this trial.

Father God, I give You praise for Your sovereign rule over our lives. Jesus may this trial bring you much glory and may You cause it to bear fruit for you in my life. Forgive me for wanting to have a baby more than I have wanted You at times, forgive me for the ugliness of my heart that has been revealed during this trial by Your power may you purge me of all ungodly thoughts and emotions. Draw me closer to You Jesus, make me to delight in You no matter my circumstance.